I have had one of those "make you crazy" kind of days which began with a plan of waaaaay too much to accomplish anyway, and then just about everything I tried to cross off the list either did not work out, could not get done through no fault of my own, or I screwed up. Case in point: the blogpost I wrote earlier and accidentally deleted with no way to retrieve. And now here we are, it is almost time for bed and I have to concede defeat and try again tomorrow. Days like this one make you really appreciate the smooth sailing ones. I vaguely recall one or two of those a year :-).
So this post will be a shortie. I was going to say "quickie" but I once got myself in a very embarrassing conversation with a patient by telling him at the end of a day-long appointment (we were doing sort of a "dental overhaul") not to worry, next time would be a quickie. Without missing a beat, he said he had no idea we offered those and why hadn't I said so before and now he was REALLY looking forward to his next visit. Yeah, he was a big ole meanie, who thoroughly enjoyed my resultant flushed red face and discomfiture.
I've been thinking a lot about love in all its aspects and forms (as you know from my last post). It keeps returning to the forefront of my musings these days. I really do believe that unconditional human love, when we are lucky enough to experience it, gives just a tiny sip of the Love that makes the Universe Dance. Through it, we catch a hint of the love of the Creator for the Created...ie us and everything else....and it inspires such a longing to know the Beloved. Love is therefore venerable. It IS God, God is it.
So I want to pay tribute to the people present in my life who love me, just me, with all my foibles and all my edge-y bits. I want to acknowledge the joy of hearing and feeling and saying and demonstrating "I love you". I pray, as I grow, to be made a more perfect channel of love for those with whom I come into contact. I pray to love purely and without agenda. I pray to see myself and others as God sees us, always with eyes of love, even when we act pretty shitty.
I'll end with a short video clip of Utterly Adorable. Enjoy. And go hug some living thing and whisper "I love you" before you close your eyes tonight....even if that living thing is "just" you.
I am a field of awareness. Any thing beyond that is identification with form...